“Authenticity is a collection of choices we have to make everyday. It’s about the choice to show up and be real. The choice to be honest. The choice to let our true selves be seen.”
Just a collection of thoughts as I wrestle with my progressive revelation of who God is and what my response is to that glorious reality.
If I had stopped to ask the people who know him better than I do, would I have avoided potentially making Graeme feel awkward?
Lots of “what if’s”.
And whilst those questions are good, I’ll never know the answer to them, I can’t go back in time and change my decisions.
But I can’t help shake this feeling that God orchestrated this whole thing not for Graeme’s benefit, but for mine.
Nothing in my circumstances had changed- I was still sitting in the dirt and dust of deep heartache and pain with seemingly no end in sight, but I had changed. My mind had shifted enough for me to see that despite my circumstances, there was joy to be found in them. This made me hungry for more of it…
This was what I was holding out for, this is what I was hoping would happen and because it wasn’t my reality, I was subconsciously and defiantly holding off making a change.
I was waiting for something external to happen to me to give me permission to change.
I was waiting for something external to me to make me happy with my church context again.
She wasn’t quite sure how had she ended up at the beginning of this path again, although she had known of its existence. The way it had been forged over the years. Always in her peripheral. Always present. She felt its presence even when she was miles away from it, wandering down a completely unrelated path….
“If the Garden of Eden is a representation of heaven-“
“Is it?” The Senior Pastor asked.
“Isn’t it?” I replied.
“Is the Garden of Eden a real thing?”
“Good question, but maybe a discussion for another time and potentially the ultimate answer to the question I’m about to ask, but let’s say Eden is real. My question is, if Eden was real and is a representation of Heaven, being in ehad - oneness with God - then will loneliness exist in heaven because it existed in Eden?”
International Women’s Day is not just about raising awareness to the men in the world of female issues, but it is also about putting a call out to all women to be on each other’s cheer squad. All boats rise on the tide and together we are better and stronger…
The more my friend and I pondered this notion of courage being something that is cultivated, the more we realised how connected to faith it was. Our courage matches the amount of Faith we have. If we look at Peter walking on the water, we can see that his big faith resulted in big courage which resulted in an experience no one else has had to date. This thought immediately leads me to question what areas in my life is my faith so small that I am missing out on seeing, doing, experiencing something truly amazing? In what ways am I limiting myself because I’m too afraid of what people might say or do? How am I limiting God and the freedom I give him to direct my steps and call me out onto the water, activating deeper courage?
As a creative individual, engaging in the art of storytelling has been a core part of who I am for my whole life. I love stories. I love how communal they are. I love that we all have a story. I love that we are all constantly constructing a story in every moment of our day and then sharing them so another can learn, change, grow from it. Without realising it, we’re telling stories every day….
God set aside His authority, His ability to create change and instead stood back to simply enjoy the work He had done. In the same way, a Sabbath or Shabbat (Hebraic term) is designed for you to stop, step back and enjoy the work of God that is all around you.
Unlike Game Of Thrones, it appears that winter is not coming, or at least has been significantly delayed. I sit here on a warm Autumn morning in summer attire marvelling that its autumn and its warm. It doesn’t appear as though anything is changing at all…
LET YOUR FAITH
BE BIGGER THAN YOUR FEARS