Lesson Two: Who am I to think I can improve on the execution of God’s plan?
God’s call or request is not a suggestion. It is not up for discussion. God doesn’t need your two cents. What God needs, is your action. Your willingness to go when He calls you. Your willingness to be interrupted. Your willingness to acknowledge your life is part of a greater narrative being worked out and your willingness to follow God’s call is critical to how God expresses His love in the world.
Lesson One: Who Am I To Think I can Improve The Timing Of God?
I naively (and unconsciously) thought that I could improve on the timing of God when in reality what I was doing was stalling. I was procrastinating. I held off because I had to check that Graeme was there. When in actual fact I wasn’t willing to allow God to disrupt me in that moment.
I Went Grocery Shopping Today...
The most surprising thing I bought was a jar of peanut butter and a jar of honey because I thought I could have peanut butter and honey sandwiches. I haven’t eaten one of those since I was a kid but with all the chaos swirling around me, I found myself seeking out and reaching for anything that felt familiar. That felt safe. To that felt normal.
I Tried To Give A Homeless Man A Sandwich
If I had stopped to ask the people who know him better than I do, would I have avoided potentially making Graeme feel awkward?
Lots of “what if’s”.
And whilst those questions are good, I’ll never know the answer to them, I can’t go back in time and change my decisions.
But I can’t help shake this feeling that God orchestrated this whole thing not for Graeme’s benefit, but for mine.